I totally lost my mojo for months. Its been a shit of a past … way too many… months for me, mentally, physically, everything. I don’t know how else to explain it. How does one cope when the only things you want are still out of your grasp, and not through any fault of your own? My job is just that, a job. I’m lucky I love the people I work with, because I sure don’t have any love for the profession that is getting further and further from what I believe in. Very rarely someone will be responsive to something I’ve said about diet and their current medical predicament, but most of the time people still want a tablet to fix it.
I’m trying to get said mojo back. I’ve signed up for Pete Evan’s “The Paleo Way”, a 10 week program with meal plans, exercise plans and support from a naturopath, trainer and all that. And for the most part I’m excited. My lovely husband suggested that I start up my blog post again, and I kind of agree it’s a good time to do it.
At THIS particular moment I’m in a state of self-wallowing, hating my life as it is and still not being able to have the one thing I want more than anything. In case you hadn’t picked it, I want a child. It’s not happening, and we don’t know why. At this point I’ve got another 2 months (the 10 weeks so has it) before it’s been a year since I went off the pill. It’s depressing and I don’t know how those people who are further along in their journey do it, hats off to them. It hurts when inevitably another friend posts that they’re pregnant. It hurts when everything people talk about, post about, aren’t even doing anything specific about, is kids. And then I feel guilty for getting so upset at someone who I probably don’t know the backstory, is just living how they want, and I’d be the same if I was in their situation. But this is why I’ve signed up for this. 13 years of being on the pill, eating inflammatory foods, sugars, carbs and all that, have most likely damaged my gut and my body more than I’d realised, and more than it affects other people. I don’t have any weight to lose. I have to strengthen my body again, get my hormones working and heal my gut (which is the epicentre of nearly every body process).
Today is the starting day. From now till 10 weeks time, there is no grains, dairy, sugar, alcohol or processed foods. I’d pretty much been eating Paleo for the past few months, but sugar, grains and alcohol have slipped back in, and at levels that my body obviously didn’t agree with. I’d also been slack at the exercise, and that has been thrown in to this program as well. But it can’t hurt can it?
I’ve made bone broth. I’d been making it for a while with just the leftovers from a roast dinner, but this time i’ve brought chicken necks, carcasses, beef marrow bones, all free range/grass fed. I’m having some in some of my meals, and then again as a drink. Bone broth is full of liquid minerals, gelatin and goodness seeped out of the bones of these animals, in a warm, soothing broth. yum yum…. actually I’m still getting used to the taste. I add a bit of herb salt and pepper and cumin and its okay. I think its a thing to get used to.
I’ve bought (until I make my own) fermented veggies – in particular, Kimchi – which is cabbage, carrot, sweet potato, radish and a few other things. Its a bit of a weird taste, but again, something to get used to I suppose. This is to supplement the good bacteria in my gut to help digest and get the most out of my food. Slow and steady is the trick to this one.
Breakfast today was wilted silverbeet/spinach, 2 poached eggs, a piece of nitrate-free bacon, 1/2 an avocado and some Kimchi. That was yummy. Nitrate-free organic bacon is so different to the stuff you get in the supermarket. Proper smoked flavour and so much of it! My poached eggs failed…. but I think i’m just going to fry them from now on, poached eggs have never been my forte.
Lunch was a beautiful affair, a stir-fried ground beef with a hot/sour sauce, basil, chili and a fried egg on top. It was so good! Heaps of flavour. Pete says that we need flavour to make up for the lack of sugar in the dish, and it was amazing. AND I have leftovers 🙂 so will be having this one with a fresh fried egg tomorrow for breakfast 🙂
And now I feel better than I did before I started this post. Something to focus my mind on, and yummy, wholesome food that I really do get excited for once I start doing it. Time to put the next batch of chicken bone broth on too, I love my slow-cooker.
On a side note – I still think the thermomix was the best thing I’ve ever bought 🙂 We still use it all the time, and I’ll still be using it for various dishes on this paleo way, quite a few people have already converted recipes!
Dinner for tonight is a roasted smoked paprika chicken with veg, and a side of roasted broccoli and bacon. I’d better get going on marinating! And also to pop a new lot of chicken broth into the slow cooker for its 24 hours of cooking.